It’s like a cold stab right in the chest,
But don’t expect the wound to be external.
Internalizing this pain comes almost naturally,
It’s as if I was trained for this.
I easily accept the results of another’s actions as my own burden to carry.
I see your hurt and automatically help you through.
Yet you cause mine, purposefully so.
I reach out to you – extend myself towards you.
I then suffer for it.
Perhaps I should re-invest all this effort back into me.
Let me have my own back, for once.
Let me hold my own-damn-self down.
Let me show up for me.
Your rejection has made me re-direct my focus.
Thank you 🌹
Yours – but mine first,